Gratefulness

Today I thought I'd write a post about being grateful. One of the things I always try to remind myself of is to remember to be happy and in order to do this you have to realise what you have and don't have. I spend days where I am down and when others are down reminding myself of what I have. Even if I don't feel like I should say the obvious, such as a roof over my head, food to eat, friends and family and money to spend. Those are things that we take the most easily for granted. Obviously I could include superficial things like, I have an iPhone or I bought new shoes, but I think being 'grateful' for these things makes us a little unhappier, because it focuses our attention on the happiness being associated with superficial items. So here are 5 things I am grateful for in my life at the moment.

1. My crazily big family

There is always somebody to make me laugh, make me smile, talk to me, kick me up the butt if I am being a little bit of a dick. Somebody to encourage me if I feel discouraged. People to support me if I ever need any help. People to cook me dinner and pick up after me (when I am being a lazy little child). 

2. My free and alone time

It means I can do whatever I want, it means I can develop myself, improve myself and work towards goals I am aiming for. I am grateful that I have so much free time, when there are people out there who can't, even people younger than me who have less freedom and time than me.

3. The internet

Verging on superficial but it just amazes me that we have so much at our fingertips. It is exciting and I am so grateful that I am able to live in this age where development is so rapid, and I can have all these resources and do what I want with it. Meet people from across the world, stay connected with people across the world.

4. Old friends and new

I simply would go mad if I didn't have my friends, my need to speak and be heard can be tiering sometimes. I am grateful there is always somebody to make me laugh, share food with me, give me an unwanted cuddle, ask me how my day is, and update me on theirs. It's nice to hear what has been good about other people's day, it makes me grateful that the people around me are so wonderfully grateful too.

5. Past memories/mistakes

I am grateful for the past memories and mistakes I experienced. I think it has made me who I am today, even though some things may have gone a little downhill, but I think it is in places like this where we learn to pick ourselves up.

Being grateful is a simple task, and I know we all have something we could be more grateful for. Enjoy the things you have now, because nothing lasts forever. That can either be a good or bad thing.

Blogtober #20

Blogtober #20: Biggest Fear

What scares me most is not being good enough. 

It is not being good enough in the eyes of other people that I am scared of. I know we are constantly told we shouldn't worry about what others think, but it is difficult to avoid what others think. Because even if you don't ask for their opinion, people will always give it to you. 

For some, it just spurts out of their mouth and they can't stop it. It is how they have been raised to be.

I think this always falls into the category of the fear of losing. You don't want to ever feel like you've lost, but it's inevitable. Being not good enough can be personal too. Not just in your professional achievements, but in your personal relationships.

You can be not good enough, the people you are with may find you not good enough. And you will lose them. Losing them sounds like it was your fault, sometimes it is sometimes it isn't. But there is always this fear that you aren't good enough, that they will find somebody better.

Just like a professional relationship, your boss could find somebody better. 

This fear of losing and not being good enough coincides.

I am working on this. 

It takes a little while to grow confidence and not validate your existence, your personality and your appearance from others. 

You probably don't remember your first disappointment, and you probably won't remember your last. We are constantly being disappointed by ourselves, the people around us. But you can't be disappointed by things you don't expect. 

This above quote used to make me feel so wronged, as if somebody else put my hopes high and just disappointed me. 

Just know you yourself can set the standards and the hopes.

Work hard, concentrate, hopes are reachable.