Worries

Worries are something we all have, they come and go and will inevitably spring up again. Lately I have found myself worrying about trivial things.. again. Small things like where will I be this time next year? Why does everybody seem to be going to assessment centres and I am still stuck here contemplating what I want to do in July. I worry a lot, I am lucky enough that it doesn't overly upset me or cause me to become overly anxious. I do a few simple things, and tell myself a few simple words to relieve that worry. It's also good to remind myself of these things.
Firstly as soon as I start to worry about comparing myself to where I am in my journey and where others are, I tell myself that we all exceed in our own ways. Sure they are doing well for themselves, and it makes you very happy, but there will come a time and place where you will exceed and they will compare themselves. We all do it. There comes a time and place.
Secondly, I take a few minutes and try to enjoy something that I like, for me this is normally YouTube, how sad, but it takes my mind off the current situation and give you time before you go totally rampant on your work and the current situation.
Thirdly, I remind myself that I am lucky to be where I am. The place I am sitting, I am lucky to be sat in this warmth and lucky to be able to have these worries about the future. Some people might not even have these choices that we find oh so frustrating. We are lucky individuals, and I like to remind myself that these worries are good. It also reminds me that I do actually care, and sitting with my housemates in the conservatory watching a pointless film every night doesn't help me in the direction I want to take, but it also doesn't mean I can't enjoy it.
Lastly, all worries combined I remind myself that I can change anything. If I am not happy with my work, I'll try and work harder. If I am not happy with my body image, I'll try and eat healthier. If I am not happy with my friends, I can change that situation. If I'm not enjoying being alone, I can try and change that situation too.
The last point is the biggest upheaval for me and gets me up and working! In the end, I know it is me who can change my situation, my grades and how I feel about life. As you can tell, I am very pro DO instead of WAIT, however there is no harm in waiting either.

A reminder that we are all here to enjoy. The worry no matter how significant it seems right now, will it matter a year from now? One of my favourite quotes from Tumblr and the internet I see constantly.

Blogtober #2

Okay, so I have not exactly been keeping up with Blogtober, due to University commitments. I have been so busy just doing some reading, trying to get back into schedule as well as preparing for the future and trying my hand at a couple of new things, at the same time TRYING to stay social and see my friends and family. Here I am updating all in one. So here is #2. 

Dream job when you were little/What is it now?

]I was only a little girl, and all little girls did were dream right? I was always one of those that wanted to a singer, a little dancer or in a dance group. I was the S Club 7 generation that wanted to be a part of the S Club Juniors. Me and my cousins used to dress up in the same outfits and did little performances for our parents, forcing them to watch us dance and sing badly. 

When you grow up you soon realise to become one of these you actually need to have talent, and a little bit of passion and actually wanting to be in the spotlight.

As I have grown up these dreams have changed dramatically. First of all I hate being in the spotlight, so get me behind the curtains as quickly as possible. At the moment I do not have a dream job, there is no job which is that enticing to me that I believe that it is my "dream". Although becoming a full time blogger would be extremely fun and exciting as I enjoy travelling a lot, so travelling blogging, meeting new people would be a dream job I guess. 

What was your dream job and what is it now?

It is funny how much your personality changes as you grow up, and with personality changes come a change of dreams and aspirations too.