Blogtober #29:

Blogtober #29: Most Embarrassing Moment

I have had a lot of these. I am just one of those people who always seem to find themselves in a socially awkward position.

For example, SLIPPING ON A KEBAB.

Who slips on a kebab? Me apparently, in front of around 10+ of my friends.

Possibly the most embarrassing was farting in the library.

This was around 5am, our library is 24 hours from Sunday - Friday. 

As a student you just find yourself waking up and walking around at ridiculous times in the morning. 

During exam period, the library can get pretty busy, and people do go there at 5am in the morning.

Well.... as me and my friend were just casually walking around, being idiots, we find ourself in the silent area between the book shelves.

And without any control, I let out a fart.

I know girls don't fart, maybe I'm not a girl.

But that is beside the point.

At 5am in the morning, in the silent area, when my friend is following behind me I LET OUT A FART. It doesn't get anymore embarrassing than that. Apart from the fact that my "friend" is somebody who I had been seeing for around 3 months, DUDE, I am just cursed by the awkward lord. 

Or maybe I am just the most awkward person, doing stupid things like this.

Pray for me. 

Blogtober #28

Blogtober #28: Things You're Superstitious About

I come from a very superstitious family, mainly because we are chinese and the chinese culture is very superstitious. It is totally fine by me because I have grown up this way. Here are the things that are constantly reiterated in my household.

1. No Kneeling

This is for praying and is seen as to be disrespectful when we do it out of context. Sit on your butt on squat instead. Asian squat. 

2. Don't open an umbrella inside the house

This has something to do with ghosts according to our old chinese school teacher. My Grandma has always told me this, but never quite got round to explaining why. I still follow this rule.

3. Whistling at night

Once again this calls for something, like many superstitions it has never quite been explained.

4. Don't brush somebody's foot, or hit them with the broom.

Not quite sure what this one does either, although it is seen as giving bad luck.

5. The number 8

In chinese the number 8 sounds like the word meaning to 'prosper', this is an extremely popular one. When you see a number plate with multiple 8's on it, it is probably a rich chinese person.

6. Bathing with leaves the day/evening before Chinese New Year, other CNY traditions such as not eating meat the day of CNY.

It is seen as good luck and I believe also good for your health.

7. Do not wash your hair or body on CNY.

This is essentially washing away all your good luck you that you are retrieving during CNY.

8. An unmarried couple staying in the same house (if girl) as their parents will bring bad luck to their parents or grandparents. 

Not so sure about this one either, and english culture seems to have changed this for many chinese families in England. But my mum and dad are still pretty superstitious when it comes down to this.

The chinese culture is full of little superstitions, these are very popular ones. Not everybody follows everything, some families follow some more than others, and being in England changes some family dynamics. However, these are the ones my family still seem to follow pretty rigourously.

Blogtober #26

Blogtober #26: Who Would Play You in A Movie

I find this to be such a strange thing to think about, because it is hardly ever going to happen. If it were though, I would like it to be somebody that I admire. 

The young girl in me is squealing for it to be somebody like Jennifer Lawrence, just because:

1. She is an incredible actress

2. She is incredibly beautiful, and is thin, despite not conforming to the actual "thin stereotypes"

3. She appears to be down to earth and is appreciative of everybody and everything achieved.

4. She seems to have a lot of respect, and I think for a person to play another real life person as a character, they need to respect that person and their achievements.

Who would you want to play you?

Blogtober #25

Blogtober #25: Favourite Book

I know it's so cliche and I sound like a 15 year old girl, however my favourite book is The Fault In My Stars. It is the only book I have ever sat down in one go read it all, it definitely sucks you in, in the best way possible. John Green knows exactly how to capture the hearts of his audience, the concept of the book just warms my heart. How something that could be seen as so negative can be turned into a positive, bringing two strong people together who are just enjoying what they have left.

If you haven't read this please do. Even if you've watched the film, it is definitely worth the read. It's an easy read to, easy on the mind and yet captures your mind and attention entirely. 

I am looking to find more books to read in general, and if its John Green I am going straight to that book. However at the moment it is a little hard to fit in reading for fun during my studies. 

Hopefully soon.

"Life is a journey where you stumble and fall" - Nico & Vinz

It has been a while since I've sat down and just wasted a day like today. I feel relaxed and like my 14 year old self, spending time to reflect on what has been happening and what will be happening in my coming days. Normally these consisted with reading a few inspirational and sentimental posts on Xanga, that was my 15 year old self, most similar to Tumblr of today. As a millennial, I have grown up slightly and moved onto websites such as Thought Catalog and Elite Daily. If you haven't had a chance to read these, I would highly suggest it, even though sometimes it takes up a couple of hours of my day when I've engrossed myself in catching up with all the articles I've missed.

I hadn't read a post in a while that I thought was highly original and which I truly resonated with, until I stumbled across a post written by a girl named Kelsey Hau, "Why I hope my ex was a once in a lifetime kind of love". She put everything so perfectly. I will try to explain why I believe this resonated so perfectly to me in a way as eloquent as her. 

1. Firstly, I understand that my love with my ex was temperamental, the constant fighting. 

It was never ending. Every few days there would be something to argue about. 

"Why are you following him on Instagram..?" 

"I can't see you today." 

All these little comments turning into full blown arguments, for hours, even arguing about who will apologise first. It was these little things. In my mind, all couples argued like this, we all went through this, because why wouldn't you if you loved your 'other half' so much.

2. The feeling of being incomplete without him. 

I somehow found I was constantly trying to fill a void when I wasn't with him. 

Wednesdays and Sundays were "our days", these were the days we would arrange to see eachother. My life with everybody else was planned around this, if he HAD to change plans, so did I. On the days I wasn't with him, I had to find somewhere to be, some friends to hang around with, because I knew as soon as I wasn't with him I was thinking of him, I had to fill a void, because essentially I felt incomplete.

3. Young Love, so passionate and so crazy.

All those late night phone calls that lasted till 3am. Sneaking out of the house when your parents are home. Finding yourself in a different country with them, and not telling your parents. Spending time sneaking into clubs as an underage teen. Spending all your money on buying the perfect anniversary gift, or the perfect birthday gift. Driving an hour and a half twice a week, just to see them. 

All these little things, you cannot replicate, because as adults you lose you have responsibilities. 

He, You, Together are no longer the priority. You find passion in the work you do, the books you read and the people who share the same passions as you who don't require all of your attention.

4. When they leave you, you feel completely and utterly lost.

The second break up, our final official break up was mutual. The first, came completely out of the blue. Once again we were just talking having our late night phone calls. All of a sudden out of nowhere he proceeds to tell me he doesn't know how he feels. Mind you, this was very shortly after my 18th birthday, very shortly after valentines day where we had spent a couple of days on vacation. Everything seemed fine. Until that moment. I felt completely lost, I was crying more than I had before (mind you, I cried a lot during this relationship. Possibly once every week at least). I was so lost, confused, scared that I didn't even want to wake up for school the next day. I found myself lay weeping in bed and finally got the courage to wake up at 11am. To only find myself crying more once I was with my friends. 

This is one of the reasons I would never want to have a relationship like this again. After being together for 2 years at this point, I just felt completely lost.

The following 1 1/2 year was even more difficult, but that is another story to tell. 

I just found everything Kelsey describes was my relationship with him. I was 15-18 during my time with him. It was both the most amazing time, blessed with amazing memories and lessons, and yet one of the most miserable, destructive, painful few years I had. It has taught me a lot of lessons.

People sometimes ask me today why I am single. In my head I can think of numerous reasons. But that is another post to come. 

But to conclude, my ex wasn't perfect, and neither was I. But I genuinely did love him, but I can only speak for me. The time was spent wisely and yet unwisely, and sometimes you just have to see the positive even if you can only remember the worst times. But to this day, I believe I will never want to be in a relationship like that, with a person like that, because loving somebody so deeply only harms yourself in the end.

Blogtober #21

Blogtober #21: Dream Vacation

Maldives!

Just look at those magical beaches, it looks secluded enough that you could have a peaceful time, and yet touristy enough that you would be welcomed politely. 

Seeing as it is apparently due to be a destination that is no more due to global warming, this would be a dream to go to and relax. 

Normally I am not really a sun, sea and sand person, but actually when a place is as beautiful as this, it doesn't matter what is there or who. 

Can we just take a moment to admire how beautiful this is?

I mean, who wouldn't want to go here?

To be right next to the sea whilst you are sleeping, listening to the sounds of the waves with the open sea breeze as you sleep.

Blogtober #6

Blogtober #6 10 Things You'd Tell Yourself When You Started Blogging

1. Keep to it, do it everyday if you want.

2. It does not matter who is reading it, don't hide your feelings because certain people are reading it.

3. Don't worry if your friends think you're crazy, so be it, just because they cannot be bothered.

4. More pictures, you bought a camera for a reason, so use it!

5. Why don't you learn web design?

6. That background sure is ugly, it doesn't matter that he made it for you, you can change it if you want.

7. Don't always blog your unhappy feelings, you are happy most of the time.

8. It's also okay if you don't feel like blogging, don't force yourself to pump them out.

9. Comment and like others, you enjoy them so why don't you comment?

10. Take time to read over your mistakes. 

Blogtober #5

Blogtober #5 Your Fall Bucket List

So I haven't really thought about this one yet. There is very little time for me to actually accomplish anything new.

So on my "fall" bucket list, which I assume will end around the end of November time, 

1. I will try to visit at least one of my friends at another University once.

2. Enjoy spending time with my friends as much as possible for this last year.

3. Kick boxing every week, without fail.

4. Go to the teashop in Brighton that everybody raves about (cough, Zoella & other youtubers, cough)

5. High Tea once more!

For now I think that will be it, there isn't a lot you can accomplish in just over a month, especially as a final year University student!

Blogtober #4

Blogtober #4. Favourite photo uploaded from Instagram. 

This would probably have to be a recent post, due to my older posts probably not having much photographic skill, plus me not caring very much about the appearance. 

This is an image uploaded only 2 months ago, during my time in Korea. This image reminds me of the excitement and happiness I felt whilst in Korea, as well as depicting my growth. To me it shows that despite my "loneliness" I am not lonely, I have and was with a friend. The comments on the image also add a little flair, and I love that my family are there to make me laugh. It is also if I say so myself quite a good angle. The wall was also so beautiful and so cute. 

Thus this has become my favourite instagram on my account, so far. 

Blogtober #2

Okay, so I have not exactly been keeping up with Blogtober, due to University commitments. I have been so busy just doing some reading, trying to get back into schedule as well as preparing for the future and trying my hand at a couple of new things, at the same time TRYING to stay social and see my friends and family. Here I am updating all in one. So here is #2. 

Dream job when you were little/What is it now?

]I was only a little girl, and all little girls did were dream right? I was always one of those that wanted to a singer, a little dancer or in a dance group. I was the S Club 7 generation that wanted to be a part of the S Club Juniors. Me and my cousins used to dress up in the same outfits and did little performances for our parents, forcing them to watch us dance and sing badly. 

When you grow up you soon realise to become one of these you actually need to have talent, and a little bit of passion and actually wanting to be in the spotlight.

As I have grown up these dreams have changed dramatically. First of all I hate being in the spotlight, so get me behind the curtains as quickly as possible. At the moment I do not have a dream job, there is no job which is that enticing to me that I believe that it is my "dream". Although becoming a full time blogger would be extremely fun and exciting as I enjoy travelling a lot, so travelling blogging, meeting new people would be a dream job I guess. 

What was your dream job and what is it now?

It is funny how much your personality changes as you grow up, and with personality changes come a change of dreams and aspirations too. 

Blogtober #1

The idea is from www.heleneinbetween.com and she has begun a month of blogging everyday. A different theme created for everyday. The 1st on the list for Day 1 is "If you'd won the lottery you'd"

So to begin, If I were to win the lottery I think I would invest 90% of it, only because I am young. I can do what I can now with very little money. I can travel the world and stay at hostels, no matter how much money I have, to travel to world it is always better to see it through places where you wouldn't want to stay. If you were in a hotel, with a lovely pool, hot tub, restaurants selling gourmet food you may as well have stayed at home. If you are to see another country, see it in all its glory spend as little money as possible staying in a sub par hotel/hostel and only go home when you need that 8hrs sleep. So as I am travelling spending that little amount of money I will be making money at the same time. That is the beauty of investment. I have been raised in a chinese household, don't blame me, they love to talk about money and investment. 

So that is basically it, travel and invest. 

If anybody sees this please give it a go, I would really like to delve into peoples minds and see what they would do once they have won the lottery.