Blogtober #25

Blogtober #25: Favourite Book

I know it's so cliche and I sound like a 15 year old girl, however my favourite book is The Fault In My Stars. It is the only book I have ever sat down in one go read it all, it definitely sucks you in, in the best way possible. John Green knows exactly how to capture the hearts of his audience, the concept of the book just warms my heart. How something that could be seen as so negative can be turned into a positive, bringing two strong people together who are just enjoying what they have left.

If you haven't read this please do. Even if you've watched the film, it is definitely worth the read. It's an easy read to, easy on the mind and yet captures your mind and attention entirely. 

I am looking to find more books to read in general, and if its John Green I am going straight to that book. However at the moment it is a little hard to fit in reading for fun during my studies. 

Hopefully soon.

Blogtober #17

Blogtober #17: I'm an expert at...

Hiding my feelings. I find it very difficult to speak to people about my feelings, not because I am afraid but more because my problems are never big, we all suffer from sadness sometimes, and sometimes I just find it hard to comprehend that mine should be put before anybody elses. 

The other thing is, when I am around somebody I just feel instantly a little happier, no matter how bad my day has been, I can always forget about it for that instance I am with another person. 

My mind just gets taken off it, and I remember how lucky I am, to have these people and my life.

It is so simple.

But to be honest I am actually not an expert at anything.

Here's a little reminder for the middle of the month. Remember you are lucky. 

Blogtober #14

Blogtober #14: Favourite Memory From Childhood

I have so many wonderful memories, having a big family does have its wonderful moments and I still experience them now. 

Having been raised partly by my grandma when my parents were busy working, we were always with our cousins, so despite my two youngest siblings having not really shared these memories with us, my cousins and my brother made up for this. We used to do everything together, from the ages of 3 till 15 we pretty much did everything together. We went to the same primary schools, same chinese schools, lived about 10 minute walk apart and we also mingled in the same group of friends. 

We became rebels together, going to London weekly without our parents knowing, going shopping without our parents consent and pretty much guiding ourselves through our education together.

My most favourite memory to date is probably us being around the age of 8 and doing a "fashion show", this meant my brother and my younger cousin being the photographers and my two female cousins, the other photographers brother being the "models". 

We would dress up and prance down the stairs to music that we were all singing, and pretend we were on a runway, at the time we really loved the limelight, and to this day we still don't see why we thought this was a good idea.

Us attending ballet at a really young age. You can tell how much I thoroughly enjoyed these long Wednesday afternoons. 

Reflective Saturdays #3

As summer has arrived the amount of free time I have to myself has increased significantly. No longer needing to focus my attention on work and people. This has given me time to look through some of my old favourites on the internet. Little gems like www.elitedaily.com and Thought Catalog. I've always loved reading, but as I've grown up my interest in reading fiction has diminished. It just makes so much sense to me, and so much more motivational when I read blog, pieces of writing from people who are a little more experienced. Those who have experienced things, travelled places, made mistakes. 

Though I don't ever think by reading these I will avoid mistakes, it just makes for an enjoyable read. 

One piece I read in particular is 10 of Life's Secrets That No One Told You.

One of the "secrets" that really stood out to me is: Your best friends will change and so will you.

I still acknowledge many of those around me as being my "best friends" and sometimes I wonder whether they think the same. However, I have also acknowledged that we are different. We aren't the same and we will never be. We will never be the 15 year olds who spent every day together, we won't work together, we won't date together and we won't get angry, upset and enjoy our summers together.

It's been difficult for me to acknowledge people as my best friends, it took me a while but something did change and I did start using the term "best friends".

As we've moved away from each other, I know that we are no longer surrounded by the same people; no longer study the same subjects, no longer talk every day. At the beginning it seemed difficult, I was so focused on keeping things together with a guy that I completely forgot how important it was to keep a long distant friendship together.

We still see each other when we return home, but it just isn't the same.

And I think people will always tell you that it is okay. At this point in our life we are different, different from each other and the old us. But that's okay, because we shared memories and we were happy. We're happy now, we have just connected with different people. We have also connected in a different way.

I still find you to be one of my closest friends, I find you inspiring and motivational when I really need it in my life. Your ambitious nature has encouraged me to thrive and experience. So if one day we meet on a path much like our old one, I will embrace it and know that I will enjoy it as much as our last journey. But for now, I appreciate that we are in each others lives, even if we are going on different journeys with different people.

We can sometimes forget about those who are still so close to our side, the peoples who's journeys crossed our paths and for all the others that will continue to be with us.

So I'll love the memories we've had, hope for me, but know that people come into your life for a reason, and sometimes they leave for no reason at all, and you leave theirs without reason also. Whoever they may be, you will continually love them, especially those who were your best friends. You'll love them eternally for just being them, for now or in the past.