Generally, I am quite happy with my life. I have been a very lucky individual who tends to be very content and positive about things in life. However, there is one thing in my life that I have felt for a while that I am lacking.
Not anything material based, not anybody, not money or success, but passion. Sure there are many things I love, like I love hanging out and with my friends and family, I love eating dinner and breakfast and snacking, travelling is fun and so is reading, and there are a multitude of things I can list that I like. Learning about people's behaviour and their thoughts. Although there is nothing that I have found myself so in love with I am passionate about it and willing to practice it is everyday, less so dreaming about it when I am not doing it!
In my life I have tried multiple things, my parents have never been the "tiger" mum and dad, they've been very easy on me and my siblings, which I am both thankful for but also a little saddened. I don't blame them for my lack of passion, I just feel it would have turned me into a different person, and I'm not unhappy with myself and my direction. I just kind of don't know my direction just yet. Unlike others who continued with what they liked. I tried a lot, from ballet, to piano, to dancing to guitar to kickboxing and writing. There is nothing that I whole heartedly put my time and soul into.
I think as I have grown up I've realised it is not that I lack passion, more so that I have never given enough time to one thing to develop that passion. I try, stumble and don't finish pursuing that goal. It kind of sucks because I want to be one of those child-geniuses (too far? haha)
Anyways, at 20 years old, almost 21 I am finding it difficult to overcome this gaping hole in my life. Lately I have been trying to fill it, and I think I am slowly getting there. I am trying new things but continuing with them, and as I sit alone in Starbucks on a cold rainy Saturday, I realise at any age it is okay to find your passion. Just be ready to work for it.
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