Conflicting Personality

As mentioned in a previous blog post, I have a very conflicting personality. This was kind of reaffirmed to me today after having a little supervision from my volunteer manager. Just a little quiz to show you what kind of person you are, I came out with the results of being orange and gold, which are conflicting personality types. One being spontaneous, vivacious and fun, and the other being more centred, organised and timely.
I'm not sure that having a conflicting personality is either a good or bad thing. I can think of a few times where my mind constantly flips from the orange and gold side.
For example in love and personal relationships (physical), I find myself sometimes thinking like the orange and telling myself, let's just do it, do what you what, you're an adult, a free adult that should be able to have fun and just enjoy yourself, and fall for that person, let your feelings out. Then I will have the conflicting gold personality coming out questioning my actions, and so those orange actions never come to light. Simple things of this sort.
Then there are other times where the orange will be most dominant. The purchase of possessions, the purchase of plane tickets, the decisions to go on holiday when I have a ton of work to do, the decision to go to a completely unknown country. The orange personality will be so overpowering I will just do it. I say yes, and then it isn't until the time comes that my gold personality will reflect and realise I may have made a huge mistake. It is in times like this where I can learn to overcome the things I fear, learn my strengths and weaknesses, and learn what things I am not ready for. There are downsides to the overpowering orange personality type, it normally means impulse, impulse means a loss of a fair amount of money, fair amount of time, and sometimes doing things for others rather than myself.
Workwise, the gold can be very helpful, it can help me become focused and work, but then the orange will creep back up on me and decide another task looks more exciting. Therefore putting more on my plate, and gold personality types hate too much on their plate. See the conflicting issues here?

There are a lot of personality tests out there, and if you just so happen to have some time, maybe give it a go. It really gives an insight into yourself, and possibly help with your personal life as well as work. The one we used is a colour based one, but I am sure there are plenty.
So maybe learn a little about yourself today just as I did :)

Peace

It has been said a million times before and we are always striving for something more, we always want something somebody else has, and we forgot what we have once made us happy, and can still continue to make us happy. I try to be happy all the time, even if I am a little stressed or feeling a little alone, or feeling a tad upset I just try to hide it, because it will burden other people. I know a burden shared is a burden halved, but at the end of the day you have still passed it on. And I truly believe I don't have that much missing from my life.

Sure there are things that get me a little down, like my appearance, or sometimes I'm not with somebody who I can be with 24/7 or console to, and sometimes whether I am doing good enough in my work, or whether my family are okay back at home, or my sisters are happy. But with all of these things I can ALWAYS find the positive side. 

I've told some of my friends this where positivity and happiness is something you think about, and I think they kind of shrug it off, as if just changing the way you think and your outlook won't help them at all. When it has been proven to do so, so many times before. Most of the times we just need to be thankful for what we do have, the people, the possessions and our ability to reflect on all this. 

I have a major case of FOMO (fear of missing out), or I used to anyways, but it still lurks within me. And I think it is always because I don't want to miss out on anything, and I don't even know why. It is during stages of fomo where I dip in and out of positivity and I find myself being negative and weary of my decisions, and it sucks, because I shouldn't have to compare myself to what everybody else is doing or experiencing. If I want to do it, and if I believe it will be fun or enriching I should go and do out, but it has turned into things like weekly clubbing, and that sucks that I compare myself in terms of what I am doing, where I am going with my friends, and how often.
And the quote above just highlights exactly what I want to tell myself everyday. It presents my pessimistic side, and yet always finding the positive.
I hope for everybody that this is the case eventually.

Reflective Saturdays #1

So sometimes besides eating food and travelling I get a little reflective. I need to make decisions in my life and move forward with hard decisions and deal with the circumstances. So to follow this, I would like to take you on my journey of the little reflections I have on occasion. 

To begin I have this quote: 

Source: http://www.hplyrikz.com

I think people always believe that giving up is failure, and you know it probably is. You have failed to complete something which is just the same as failing it all together, because you did not get the results you wanted. However, sometimes failures need to happen. Giving up in situations need to happen. Sometimes you won't always reach your destination, and maybe because you weren't meant to be there in the first place. 

I am a believer in what is meant to be will be, whether this is the places you go, the people you meet and the circumstances that arise in your life. Though not a strong believer of this mantra, I think it gives me a positive outlook on life. It allows me to be positive no matter the situation, if it is a bad situation, it was meant to be. It was meant to be so that better things can come into your life, or if not just to allow you to experience and make those mistakes. Being positive makes every aspect of your life better. It makes you more willing to do things, be with people, and all round makes you happier. Even if you don't believe it, maybe give this mantra a try. You never know, it may make a difference in some part of your life. 

Giving up can disappoint you, it can disappoint others and this feeling may stay with you. However if you are unhappy in a place, a situation or with the people.. why stay? If you can't come up with enough reasons for yourself to stay. If the negatives out way the positive it is your time to leave. It is time to accept that you probably aren't ready for this challenge.. and it's okay. People develop at different stages of their life, people go through different experiences to make them who they are. This will inevitably lead people to feeling comfortable in different places. It's just how it is. Develop at your own rate, if you want to do something GO AHEAD AND DO IT. If you don't want to do something, really think about the pros and cons and make a decision. If it all comes down to more cons, don't do it. The decision is yours. We have been privileged with a chance to make our own decisions.